What Am I to Learn?

In this life you gave me there have been
lessons I wish I never had to learn
Yet on the other side of darkness at least so far as I’ve seen
there has been a beautiful light of strength waiting to wrap itself around me
What am I to learn from the possibility of
this type of heartbreak though?
What am I to learn through the silent tears I cry
for her in the stillness of the night?

You’ve got all the answers I need
please answer the prayers of a daughter’s heart
You know I’d come back to you in a moment no questions asked and
give her back the life she gave me
If it meant her candle would never burn out
I know in time you’ll show me
what you want to teach me

Sometimes the anger I feel over the pain I may face
makes me want to run away from you
I just wish my family could be spared
You’ve taught me that wishes turned to prayers can come true
so I’ll keep praying because it’s all I can do

Game of Love

When she first met him he couldn’t stop bragging about

a woman he met on the internet
A woman he’d known only a short while, but
one he already called his soul mate
As time would tell this soul mate had plans of her own that
did not include playing
his romantic version of the game of love
The saddest part of all this is she saw his heartbreak coming
before all the talk of marrying his soul mate and living happily ever after began  If she were to tell friends she was happy to hear him talk marriage
she’d be lying and her mama taught her lying was wrong 

Hell even she had and still has a crush on this sexy man but
she knew then as well as now she couldn’t have him
That’s alright she’ll cherish the friendship they have and
what a friend he’s been since they’ve met
When he moved he took part of her heart along with him
a part that will always be his  
It has been said if you love someone let them go
if they find their way back to you it’s meant to be

He is, and she hopes he always will be a hopeless romantic so giving of his heart and soul

To all the women that have done him wrong
you best be glad she doesn’t  know you
You’re all probably wishing for one more chance but,  
she hates to be the bearer of bad news
your game of love is over

What She Taught Me

Over the past few weeks I’ve been asked a question
that makes me smile both inside and out
every time someone asks it
Who is the mother and who is the daughter?
I smile as I think it’s my turn to be there for her
the way she’s been there for me through the years
Even though I wish the situation she now faces was different
I believe as she does, she will receive her miracle soon

She has given me a mothering spirit and
taught me how to be strong when all I want is to let my tears fall
for the mother and best friend she is and always will be
If it seems like our roles have been reversed maybe they have but
I’m going to keep loving her with the same mothering spirit
even though she tells me I annoy her at times
I guess the mothering spirit comes with a side of over protectiveness but
I’m not changing anytime soon because that’s what she taught me

What Do I Really Mean To You?

I hear the faint sound of a small flute playing
In an instant I realize that sound is my text alert and
you have sent me a text message
Oh this can’t be good, I say as I read the text you sent
my hands moist from sweat that has now gathered in my palms because
I have a feeling I know what’s coming next
The message the same as it has been since I’ve known you
Hey Sweetie, I’m so sorry I, I have somewhere else to be or
something else to do, do you mind if I come in late?

I text back, no I’ll see you when you get here
take your time  and be careful

I’ve given up the hope of ever hearing the one
question you asked the first time you were ever late
Can I make the time I missed up to you?

My text alert goes off again twenty to thirty minutes laterThis time your text reads I’m so sorry I don’t know if
I’ll be in at all again I’m so sorry!
What you don’t know is by this point I’m so pissed
I can’t see strait
Your I’m sorrys are beginning to fall on death ears

How would you feel if you had a daughter like me;
who needed help and she couldn’t get it because    
someone wasn’t there when she needed them?
I know for a fact, you’d raze hell
until she got what she needed
If you’d do that for her, why can’t you be here for me?

I then think to myself, how the hell do you
ever expect to get paid if you are never here?
Oh don’t get me started on your paycheck
I realize you are entitled to one if you work the hours
As I’ve told you I’m sorry that your last two were late but,
I have no control over that and I’ll tell you now
I did not need to receive your texts saying
you had nothing to show for all the time you worked
What about my gratitude?
I have done everything I can to show you
how much I care
Does that mean nothing to you?

You say we’re friends, do friends discuss paychecks every week!
To be honest I’d really like the answer to one question
What Do I Really Mean To You?
I don’t want you to tell me what you think I want to hear
unless it is the God’s honest truth

Spoken Word Poetry

You may ask why she likes spoken word poetry
Well sometimes she likes the topics these poets
choose to write about
While at other times she likes to view the world
from a fresh and different perspective
Yet she mostly likes this form of
self expression due to the passion it provokes
This passion is the same passion that
flows through her body before she
sits down at her computer to write

Her YouTube favorites list is
full of poems she wishes she’d written
Then she realizes it’s her turn to keep bringing
her brand of passion for this art form to
YouTube so she might inspire the next generation of spoken word poets

Worry’s Love Affair with Me

Worry and I have been going round and round
in a dance similar to a new couple’s first trip around the dance floor
for weeks on end now and I’m getting tired of
Worry’s love affair with me
You’d think he’d get the message loud and clear
when his love for me went and continues to go unrequited, but
oh no it has only gotten worse

This love affair is very different from the one
I share with the true love of my life
This love affair is a nightmare I hope I can soon get out of
I wish I could cheat on Worry with the man I truly love
just so Worry the man who thinks he’s so in love with me
would leave me the hell alone

Sounds a little desperate I know but
If worry loves me as much as he seems to right now
he’ll let me go so I can get back to the life I had before we net
A life where happiness was priceless and
my spirit was free to sore

Worry doesn’t complement me on how beautiful
I am before taking me out on the town
Instead, he ties my stomach in knots for days
Worry doesn’t wrap me in his arms at night
just to reassure me everything will be alright
Instead, I lose sleep and wake to the pile of
stressors he leaves upon my shoulders each day

That’s it I’m calling it quits!
Worry’s love affair with me is over!!
I can’t take the pain you leave behind anymore
I know I’ll see you again but,
when you see me, please pretend
you don’t know me and
I’ll do the same

His Angel

Her name is one he can't stop speaking
I think to myself she must be the luckiest woman in the world
I mean look at him he's her rock when
she needs his strength but
he can be a big kid at other times
Visions of this woman I don't think I've ever met
find my head as he talks endlessly about his angel
He makes her sound like the perfect match for him

I think I’d like to meet her one day
Then I realize I know the woman
he can’t stop talking and or thinking about
I know her well her face stares back at me
every time I look in the mirror
If I’m his angel imperfect must be the new perfect but
I’ll take being his angel over not having him in my life any day

I never dreamed I’d mean the world to someone like him
Now that he’s here I’ll spend the rest of my life showing him
how much I love being the angel of his heart
As I think of where we’ve been over the years
I can’t wait to see where we’re going