Happy Heavenly Birthday

Dear Daddy,
I know it's been years  since I've called you that
Today marks the first birthday you've spent in heaven
I wish I could call you as I have on many other birthdays
just to hear you laugh as I say
Happy Birthday old man!
As I sit here that thought  brings tears to my eyes and
breaks my heart
Then I wonder if you spent today talking and laughing with
mom your son and God
just as you would've with your girls
as you liked to call us
Or did you sail on heaven's endless blue oceans?
I know you would've sailed on our emerald green waters today
if only you were here
I love and miss you daddy
I hope and pray you're having a
happy heavenly birthday
Just as I pray we all will again someday

That Girl

Imagine you stroll into a college classroom
The professor gives you a look as if you have grown three heads
right before his eyes
Well, it happened to her
What she didn't know at that time was
he gave her parents news no parent wants to hear

He told them their nine month old little girl
would more than likely live the life of a mentally challenged person
Upon hearing this, she wondered if she
should confront him
She decided not to; letting her knowledge
prove him wrong
After that, students from his classes would come up to her asking
Are you that girl he spends the first part of the semester talking about?
Her  answer was always the same
Yes, I am that girl and my name is Teresa

Dreaming

She just got a little piece of great news

Upon its announcement excitement
 courses through her being and
she begins dreaming,
something she hasn't dared to let herself do for so long
 She didn't want to watch her dreams like glass
shatter in front of her as some have done before

Though the news was great
a recent dream didn't work out the way she hoped it would
Maybe it wasn't meant to be at this point in time but
her dream may still come true when the time is right

Now she has learned if the dreams she has do fall apart
it doesn't mean she has to give up
The questions she finds herself now
pondering on a frequent basis are
What is possible?
Is this His plan?

She has the drive to work hard and
yes, she will continue dreaming
After all isn't dreaming where the seeds
of everything begin to grow?

Not A Victim

Yes, she may have been dealt a bad hand
at times but
she is not a victim and
never will be as long as
God has His hands upon her life
She doesn't want people to feel sorry for her and
she never has

Please save your sorrow for someone
who truly deserves it
She's not a victim
Instead, she's a strong believer that
what doesn't kill her only makes her stronger

Through The Eyes

She sits here wondering how she got so lucky
not only once but twice in her life
What did she do to deserve a love as endless as this?
She's been looking for a sign that the mother
she will always and forever love is still with her

Who would've thought she'd see a mother's love
A love so patient and kind
reflected a second time through the eyes of someone she least expected?
It's this love she has seen through the eyes of two women she admires that has
inspired her to work hard to achieve the goals she once only dreamed of

To the mother she loves thank you for
the hand she knows you had in bringing this source of
light, inspiration and positive energy into her life
She will continue striving to be a better person
because she knows you would expect nothing less

To the woman who's eyes
 reflect her mother's love back at her
Where does she begin?
Thank you for everything you've done to inspire her to
change in so many positive ways
She hopes you know a piece of her heart will always and forever
belong to you
for this reason and so many more
she wants you to know she truly loves you

Blessings

Another new year is upon us but,
before she leaps into it,
 she'd like to take a few minutes to reflect
on the blessings God has given her this past year
Don't get  her wrong she's seen her share of
heartbreak and pain but,
she's learned even heartbreak and pain are blessings
She's as grateful for the pain as she is
for the times of joy

He's inspired her by sending her someone
who wants the same things they both want for her
She's seen a light in her spirit she hasn't seen in a few years and
to be honest she thought it had been extinguished forever
She's glad He knew different

She knows she's got many months of hard work ahead  but,
He's given her the will to climb the mountains
she wants to
She is a fighter through and through
She hopes the inspiration that has carried her through
the past twelve months
will carry her through the next year
She is holding onto the hope that this coming year
is her year

Lost In The Dark

She's not going to say she's sorry for your loss because
she knows it sounds so cliché  at this point in time
She knows if you hear one more I'm sorry you might just fall apart
Allow yourself time to feel your emotions as they come and go
let those you love help in any way they can

She's been lost in the dark before
She knows the questions that must be running through your mind
Why me lord?
How much more heartache must I endure?
In the dead of night when you feel alone
 just remember to pray

One day you'll see the light again
realizing as she did
He brought you through this
healing your heart in the past
He will find you and heal you once again
This will happen all in His time
so my dear be patient and hold on