To The Girl Inside

To the girl inside my heart who

at times makes me feel so weak
I hear you loud and clear
the tears that run down my face at night
dear girl are yours
I know you're hurting deeply
You're thinking life isn't fair
Sadly, I'm sorry to tell you you're right

Even though you can't see the light beyond
the pain you now feel
It shines brighter than we could ever imagine
We're about to be changed for the better
I will never let you give up!
We owe ourselves a chance
to see where this life takes us

Remember God has to break us so
He can mold us into the person
He always knew we could be
The pain you feel
had to pass through Him first
You're the one always reassuring me
there is beauty in the breaking
Hold on girl our beauty is coming

Careless Words

Careless words at least to her, are like bullets from a gun

They have the power to pierce the heart
leaving broken pieces in their wake
They can rob you of faith trust and love
A love you once thought was never failing
from a person you thought would or could
never hurt you

Careless words can make one question their own strength
If she's being honest that's happened to her
more than a few times
in the not so distant past
You say she's weak
Who are you to make
that assumption?
You haven't lived in her shoes for one day
so until you do you have no room to talk

Your ignorance evokes tears she refuses to let you see
Why should she give you that satisfaction?
She knows you don't care to see the damage
your careless words are creating
How would you feel if she were treating you that same way?

She has done nothing to warrant this
vile treatment you've shown her
Yet despite everything, she still tries to
give you the respect you don't deserve at times
This may come as a shock to you but,
she believes in treating others the way she
would want to be treated
That is a value you can't shake her free of
no matter how many careless words you use

Your careless words will no longer evoke tears
from somewhere deep within
Maybe then you'll see the woman
you say you thought she was
If you don't, she knows who she is and
that's all that matters

Message From The Heart

You've done so much for me

Seen me through some of the best
moments of my life which
you helped to create
Sometimes I felt I wasn't able to give one hundred percent but
having you on my team made me want to push
myself further than I knew I could
You helped turn frowns into smiles
smiles I never thought I'd see from myself again

You took my heart fixing
some of the broken pieces redefining what love means
I know I've thanked you countless times but
all I have is this message from the heart
I hope on those days when
it seems a little gray
remember you helped change a life and forever
left your mark on my heart

You Were

Once Upon A Time

you were the center of my world
You were the first person I thought of
at first mornings light and
the last one I thought of before the stars blanketed the sky at night
You were my diamond I treasured with all my heart
I find myself wondering if that meant anything to you
You shined brighter than anything I'd ever seen
You were my Valentine for sixteen years
I loved you more than I loved myself

I wish I could've been the diamond of your heart
Lord knows you were mine
I still wish we could make it work but
I don't want to need you like I once did
it would hurt too much

Real Connection

What happened to friends visiting, having face to face time?

Giving people time to develop relationships and or friendships
that could change one's life in ways they never dreamed of?
What I like to call real connection
I don't know about you but, I miss the days
before everyone knew about
posting, tweeting snapping and
all the other new fancy ways of communicating
When you actually had to make time for others

I won't tell you those modes of communication
don't make life easier but at what cost?
It's so sad to think the next generation may
not even understand the message
I'm trying to convey in these lines
Please hear me, I say this from the bottom of my heart
I beg you, please don't let real connection die

I Promised

From the first time we met I promised you

I'd be there no matter what
in the brightness of sunny days or the darkness of stormy nights
After all isn't that what best friends do?
You are the sister I chose for myself
I couldn't imagine my life without you in it

You've apologized for not being a good friend at times
I guess as long as we're apologizing I have to say
I'm sorry for not always being there
when you needed me in the past
Yet you still remind me who I am when the world
doesn't see me in the same light as you do
I promise I will be your strength when God forbid
you find you are weak
I can be strong for both of us
if you need me to be

I Am

I am only human which means

I am subject to making mistakes
Sometimes those mistakes get repeated unintentionally but,
isn't that the very definition of what it means to be human?
I am not perfect, nor do I claim to be but,
I am learning this life is a never ending process

When my mistakes are repeated
I don't think my past should be
thrown back in my face
I don't throw your past back at you because
I know some of it hurts like hell
just like mine does
The shame I feel should be enough
of a scar to remind me of what went wrong

I wish you could see me for who I really am
Your sister who wants a relationship with you
Stop treating me as if I'm broken,
needing to be fixed because
it's breaking my spirit
You'll never know how much you've broken my heart
yet still I find the strength to love you