I Know Who You Are

I know who you are

I knew what you needed even before you did this morning 

Why do you think that message was sent when it was?

You needed a reminder to stay calm in the face of being scared

I was there and I know you felt me with you

In the silent prayer of your heart 

I heard you ask for strength you feel you’ve lost

I know you know I sent you strength by way of the Holly Spirit

Remember I didn’t bring you through the experiences you’ve had for you not to have learned the lessons you’ve learned 

I know who you are

I also know you been longing for a freedom you are so close to 

Believe me you’ll get there

Do You Ever Wonder?

Imagine you are a woman Who needs help taking care of the most basic of needs 
Imagine you have to worry day in and day out if the people you trust to take care of you will show up to do the job you hired them to do
To all those people I have hired 
I have one question

Do you ever wonder what’s going on when you’re not around? 
There’s so m any times I wear a smile when you see me 
Yet that doesn’t mean everything is peaches and cream
Through I wish with everything I am it were
Do you ever send prayers to heaven on my behalf? 

Would it surprise you to know I’ve done it for each one of you on many occasions?
All I ask is that you treat me like the human I am and not the paycheck I provide you 

Today’s Tears

I’ve cried and cried more than I care to admit
Today’s tears held back for far too long
Tears I forbade you to see
Why should I let you in when all you do is tear me down?
 
Why I let myself open up to you knowing that what I say will be used against me?
Not even in a court of law but
In a place you’ve chosen to  decide who’s right and who’s wrong
I have changed and I’m still changing
It’s a lifelong process
I didn’t make the choice I made to spite you I did it to protect myself and the one I love
Today’s tears won’t soon be forgotten
They will be tattooed on my heart arranged in what is now a lesson learned 

Your Secrets

When I let myself become a vessel for carrying your secrets
it was as if they became like deadly poison to me
You swore you were my friend
I was only thirteen
to young to know your game
I learn to fight through all your meaningless words though I didn’t understand what was happening 
I had to tell your secrets it wasn’t just about me
It was about all the others he didn’t have a voice
They needed to have a chance
to live life and be free
No one should ever be scared the way I was the afternoon I made the decision to say something
I’m sorry but then again i’m not 

Bathed In Gold

As I pray to you in thanks
for answering prayers regarding questions I’ve needed answers to for some time 
I realize I’m bathed in gold 
What if the gold I find myself bathed in is a sunset signaling the end of something?

On the other hand what is the gold surrounding me is a sunrise?

it is a sunset I know the person I’ll have to end things with will be hurt

I pray that your spirit will give him comfort when he’ll need it
If this gold is a sunrise I know I will find true happiness because you chose me to walk this narrow road

I need you to know I am in forever will be grateful for this opportunity you are affording me

Lavender Angel

 She's beautiful
She's clothed in lavender flowing Satin
Where is she from?
No one knows
Lavender angel, would you do her the honor of being her guardian?
You will always be the guardian she strives to be one day

The Real Me

I don’t see the woman everyone else sees when I look in the mirror
I see a woman Who is trying to right the wrongs of her past
It doesn’t happen overnight I wish oh how I wish all my wrongs could be made right in the span of one night
Some tell me I am in inspiration
The moment I hear those words the real me the woman inside
Cries silently what do you see that I can’t?
I carry guilt but I feel I have apologize over and over again for
It’s still here though
I can feel it lift slightly at times but at times it seems to come back twofold
I try so hard to believe 
it will someday get better 
The real me can’t let go