Everything I Held In My Heart

Here I am once again
asking an all to familiar question lord
Why?
Why call my father home now?
I wish you could answer me, but
I know I'll have to wait until it's my turn

I know my father and I
didn't have the relationship either of us wanted but,
God you know I tried more times than I can count because
I loved and still love him more then he knew
The tears I cry in the dead of  night
are for the father I miss from years past

Dad, if you can hear me
I just want to say I'm sorry
for everything I held in my heart that
I wanted to say but
didn't take that chance to say
God, please ease the pain in this heart of mine