Beyond The Wheelchair

She rolls in, you speak to the person she's with, but

to her you say nothing and stare
She says hello, dead silence answers
Why is she not worth the two seconds
it would take you to respond?
Yes she can talk so don't be afraid to hold a conversation with her

If she didn't respond to your questions because
you were different: would you not feel ignored?
If you have questions why not ask?
She won't be offended
that's a promise she can make here and now

Have you ever seen a wheelchair before?
To her the wheelchair is just one small part of many
unique parts that make her who she is
If you can look beyond the wheelchair
you'll see a woman who has a huge heart and
isn't afraid to share it
You'll see that her mission in life is to
teach you that differences aren't meant to be feared
Instead, differences are meant to be embraced

Her Heartbeat

Haven't heard her heartbeat in a little more than two years

The one that sustained her, the woman who gave me life
It may seem so trivial,
How can I miss the rhythm I got to know so well?
The rhythm I longed to hear first thing in morning's light and
last before night's slumber
The rhythm that softly let me know everything would be okay


When she got ill her heartbeat made me believe in miracles
The kind prayers are sent up to ask for
What I wouldn't give to hear the sound that was uniquely hers once again

Beautifully Broken

I've done this entirely too much lately

watching people I love being pushed and pulled on
the thin line between life and death
You may not see my tears or any outward signs of grief but
trust me they are there

Sleepless nights spent wondering
why this keeps happening
Knowing in my head it's not my fault but
my heart tells me I should be there
Prayers sent up from beneath  moonlight
Endless tears in the dead of night
strangled sobs  no one can hear
Why?
Because it's not about me
I have to be strong for everyone else
crying isn't an option 
That was a lesson  I learned
a few years ago

I am becoming a pro at being
beautifully broken
Yet that doesn't stop my heart from shattering
each time I get the news a loved one is
about to be called home
I will be strong but I'll remain beautifully broken till
I see my loved ones again one day

Memories

Sometimes she wraps herself in memories

like blankets to keep warm on cold nights
Yet there are still nights like tonight when even
the good memories tug at her heartstrings
Even the slightest of tugs at times causing
her heart to break

Saved

She officially gave her heavenly father her heart once again

On some level there is a peace she's never known before but,
there's a spirit trying to steal her from Him through temptation
To that spirit she says I am His and because
I am His daughter you must remember,
No weapon formed against me shall prosper

This past week she's seen prayers answered
as soon as she's prayed
She wants to follow Him whole heartedly and
will do so, because she wants nothing more
than to be His, to be clean, covered by His blood and to stay pure at heart
He saved her, in turn she will live as He sees fit
she can never repay the debt she owes but
she will never stop trying
thank you Father

The Heart of a Teddy Bear

 He tries to act tough but

she sees past the mask he wears
His secret is safe with her;
it always will be this she can promise
from now on
She's sure others see past his toughness though

He inspires her to want more for herself
More than she knew she could give
He always makes her work hard
She loves to say he tortures her
She has a little secret of her own
she'd have it no other way
It's all worth it, if it will give
her a better quality of life

She sees right into the heart of a teddy bear
She never expected to find a friend
on this journey she's now on
Let alone someone who has
the heart of a teddy bear
The hugs they share are the
best moments of her day

To my friend with the heart of a teddy bear
I am so blessed to have you in my life
Thank you for everything you've done for me
Never stop being the tough guy with a heart
bigger than you let on
You have found your place in my heart
where you will forever stay

Hearts And Flowers

My heart beats for you Valentine

The hearts and flowers you give to me with love
serve as simple gestures that let me know
My heart is yours forever