Lost In The Dark

She's not going to say she's sorry for your loss because
she knows it sounds so cliché  at this point in time
She knows if you hear one more I'm sorry you might just fall apart
Allow yourself time to feel your emotions as they come and go
let those you love help in any way they can

She's been lost in the dark before
She knows the questions that must be running through your mind
Why me lord?
How much more heartache must I endure?
In the dead of night when you feel alone
 just remember to pray

One day you'll see the light again
realizing as she did
He brought you through this
healing your heart in the past
He will find you and heal you once again
This will happen all in His time
so my dear be patient and hold on

The Girl I Used to Know

Dear the girl I used to know,
You had a sparkle in your eye that
rivaled the sun's brightness and breathtaking beauty
You lived every day of the life God gave you to the fullest
hungry for the knowledge we are all so proud of you for learning

Now your life seems dark without
a ray of light for you to follow
Well, to the girl I used to know
I urge you to let your light shine
even if people try to steel it from you
Don't ever stop reaching out for help
I have faith someone will hear your call

My dear girl these bully's are jealous because
you have something they never will
Therefore they have to hide behind cell phones and text messages
picking on smart girls
like you to make themselves feel better
It's sad I know that those you thought were your friends
are hurting you like they are but, people like this don't deserve your friendship

I pray one day the scars you carry
in that beautiful heart of yours will heal
In the end I hope this only makes you stronger
so you can move on putting this behind you

Someone's Everything

Lord I come to you this morning wondering why I feel this way
my heart drenched in turmoil
While I know your love should be enough,
for better or worse my heart wants more
We've been here more times than I can count

He says he loves me yet,
I wonder if he knows what it's like
 to be someone's everything
I have this heart full of love and
all I want to do is to share it

If he's not someone's everything why does my heart
keep trying to make us work?
Should I just let us go for good?
I love him but,
the one question I keep asking myself is,
Is our love enough this time?

Christmas This Year

When some people think of Christmas
they think of shopping for the perfect gift
I know, I thought the same thing
just a short while ago before my life was
forever changed once again

Christmas this year and forever more
 will have a meaning I wish I could've seen
 without having gone through so much loss but
 I know pain helps one grow into something beautiful and
yes I've received a gift that will give me what I need from now on
All I have to do is pray to my God
If you're wondering I've been praying more than
I have in a long while

When I hear the word Christmas
the first person I think of is Jesus
Then I realize I am blessed with the people who are in my life because
He is the reason we are all here
So when you are opening gifts this year
think of the greatest gift we have ever and will ever receive

Everything I Held In My Heart

Here I am once again
asking an all to familiar question lord
Why?
Why call my father home now?
I wish you could answer me, but
I know I'll have to wait until it's my turn

I know my father and I
didn't have the relationship either of us wanted but,
God you know I tried more times than I can count because
I loved and still love him more then he knew
The tears I cry in the dead of  night
are for the father I miss from years past

Dad, if you can hear me
I just want to say I'm sorry
for everything I held in my heart that
I wanted to say but
didn't take that chance to say
God, please ease the pain in this heart of mine

This Fragile Heart

Dear God,

Yet again I find myself sitting here with a broken heart even though

I knew the ending of this chapter before it began

Why does this fragile heart you gave me

find it so easy to love others?

When it's so obvious they don't care a thing about me

A woman who would give someone special the world

if only given the chance to do so
Oh, but I do have the chance you gave everyone

I may not understand why this heart

you gave me is so fragile but

I know you tried to shield it before
I ever felt this pain
Thank you my dear father for this fragile heart 
at least I know you cared enough to love me beyond
what I know at this moment in time and
in turn I love you 

Your Miracle in Motion

 

As tears of pain fall from my eyes and

the heart you gave me breaks 

I sit here still knowing that I am and always will be
your miracle in motion

Just like all your children are

 

I can't see your purpose for my life yet because

The tears you'll one day wipe away

are now stinging my eyes
even though these tears continue to flow
I still remain eternally grateful to you
Thank you for the highs and lows of my life
For without the lows
I could not know the joys of this earth

As your miracle in motion I hope
I will be able to serve you as I am called to do
Thank you for helping me find real love
As your miracle in motion
I owe you everything
so do with me what you wish father