Wondering

She got news no daughter wants to hear
her mom is ill with cancer and now she prays every day that
God will intervene making it go away
A cancer that let's be honest could
leave she and her loved ones without their rock
A thought she can't help, but
think about alone in her room at night
While she tries not to cry aloud
Yet her mom's illness and the outcome of it
aren't the only matters causing her heart pain
in this very moment

The man who loves her with all his heart
The one who said he'd be there for her
through thick and thin
after she shared the news
The one whose hands she put her heart in
from seventeen until forever came
hasn't been there in the ways she needs him to be

Where is he?
Does he even care?
Is it too much for her to ask for him to be there
Like she has for him in the not so distant past?
with an open mind and the heart she fell in love with

Now she's wondering
If she should let him go and go
back to square one to find a man that can and
wants to give her more
She has so much love to give and
feels he may not be the one anymore

Like she's told him before
There's more to love than talking about
sex twenty four seven
She knows the decision is hers and
hers alone to make
She doesn't want to leave a broken heart in her wake, but
a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do