We shouldn’t be doing this
this thing we know is wrong
To you it was just sex where as you became my whole world
I held on to every little word you said as if it were life’s breath
Hush you said if our secret gets you could potentially lose it all
Your career, your wife, your home and your children
I loved you enough to keep it buried for as long as my conscience would let me
Hush you said as you slowly and methodically raped me of the belief that anyone would believe the story I’d tell if I ever broke my silence
You raped me of my ability to believe in myself leaving physical scars in your path
Sill by this time deep pain had already formed none of which will be healed completely in this lifetime though I know Will be healed in the next
Hush angel faced devil I didn’t betray you
It was you whom betrayed me
Yet today I sit here hoping you take the opportunity to be a better friend, man and husband to those who love you
I waver between wanting forgive you while still hating the actions you took against me time and again
