Your Birthday

As I look up to heaven
Tears streaming down my face
I remember it’s your birthday
This is one of those days every year
that makes me sad
Mom I love you
I wish with all my heart I could come visit
I believe one day soon we will be together once again

Blue-moon Escape

She grew up listening to Blue-moon of Kentucky
Dreaming of what a blue moon escape might be like
She dreamed of a moon full of light casting blue shadows where it might
How relaxing With a blue-noon escape truly be

I pray For Rest

Dear Jehovah, 
As I lay here in the dark about to drift off to sleep
I pray for us for both of us
I can tell rest has not found her at peace these last few nights
To be honest it really haven’t found the  peace to rest much either
Please wrap us in your peaceful loving arms
I pay for rest full of peace and comfort
May our last thoughts are of you and all you’ve done to show your love for us 
Thank you so much for hearing this Prayer written in poetic form

My Dad Found My Heart

Memories of my dad found my heart today
He and I did not have the best relationship but
for me all is forgiven 
I can’t wait to one day give him a hug and tell him I’m sorry
I am so thankful he got another chance with her

I can’t say my dad was my hero but at least my baby sister can
I secretly hoped he would one day be someone’s hero
She introduced me to the first man I ever loved once again
I miss my dad who found my heart once again today
When I look at her I will always see my dad who my heart reflects back at me when I look into her beautiful eyes 

Thank you so much to my heavenly father for allowing her to be part of my life
Without her my dad might not of found my heart in the way he has if she and I never got the opportunity to meet
As for you dad I always have and always will love you no matter what
McKenzie I am so proud to call you my sister you’ll never know how much you mean to me

I Know Who You Are

I know who you are

I knew what you needed even before you did this morning 

Why do you think that message was sent when it was?

You needed a reminder to stay calm in the face of being scared

I was there and I know you felt me with you

In the silent prayer of your heart 

I heard you ask for strength you feel you’ve lost

I know you know I sent you strength by way of the Holly Spirit

Remember I didn’t bring you through the experiences you’ve had for you not to have learned the lessons you’ve learned 

I know who you are

I also know you been longing for a freedom you are so close to 

Believe me you’ll get there

Do You Ever Wonder?

Imagine you are a woman Who needs help taking care of the most basic of needs 
Imagine you have to worry day in and day out if the people you trust to take care of you will show up to do the job you hired them to do
To all those people I have hired 
I have one question

Do you ever wonder what’s going on when you’re not around? 
There’s so m any times I wear a smile when you see me 
Yet that doesn’t mean everything is peaches and cream
Through I wish with everything I am it were
Do you ever send prayers to heaven on my behalf? 

Would it surprise you to know I’ve done it for each one of you on many occasions?
All I ask is that you treat me like the human I am and not the paycheck I provide you 

Today’s Tears

I’ve cried and cried more than I care to admit
Today’s tears held back for far too long
Tears I forbade you to see
Why should I let you in when all you do is tear me down?
 
Why I let myself open up to you knowing that what I say will be used against me?
Not even in a court of law but
In a place you’ve chosen to  decide who’s right and who’s wrong
I have changed and I’m still changing
It’s a lifelong process
I didn’t make the choice I made to spite you I did it to protect myself and the one I love
Today’s tears won’t soon be forgotten
They will be tattooed on my heart arranged in what is now a lesson learned 

Your Secrets

When I let myself become a vessel for carrying your secrets
it was as if they became like deadly poison to me
You swore you were my friend
I was only thirteen
to young to know your game
I learn to fight through all your meaningless words though I didn’t understand what was happening 
I had to tell your secrets it wasn’t just about me
It was about all the others he didn’t have a voice
They needed to have a chance
to live life and be free
No one should ever be scared the way I was the afternoon I made the decision to say something
I’m sorry but then again i’m not