Today’s Tears

I’ve cried and cried more than I care to admit
Today’s tears held back for far too long
Tears I forbade you to see
Why should I let you in when all you do is tear me down?
 
Why I let myself open up to you knowing that what I say will be used against me?
Not even in a court of law but
In a place you’ve chosen to  decide who’s right and who’s wrong
I have changed and I’m still changing
It’s a lifelong process
I didn’t make the choice I made to spite you I did it to protect myself and the one I love
Today’s tears won’t soon be forgotten
They will be tattooed on my heart arranged in what is now a lesson learned 

Your Secrets

When I let myself become a vessel for carrying your secrets
it was as if they became like deadly poison to me
You swore you were my friend
I was only thirteen
to young to know your game
I learn to fight through all your meaningless words though I didn’t understand what was happening 
I had to tell your secrets it wasn’t just about me
It was about all the others he didn’t have a voice
They needed to have a chance
to live life and be free
No one should ever be scared the way I was the afternoon I made the decision to say something
I’m sorry but then again i’m not