Summer Times

It’s hot as hell in the Florida sun in the summertime
So hot one can find themselves diving into a cool pool of
blue in a friend’s backyard or a bluish green ocean
on the shore of a white sandy beach
Just to get some relief from the beaming rays of sun
on hot summer days
Yet the heat brings back memories of Summer times of
great joy from her past
A past she wishes she could’ve frozen and
thawed out as life seems to be throwing curveballs at her right and left

Whenever she thinks of summer times she
sees a young carefree girl with dreams as vast as her imagination
A girl with no worries of what could or should be
when time seemed to do nothing but crawl and
two weeks felt like a lifetime
A girl just living in the what was from one moment to the next

As she sits here she can’t help but wonder if
there are still summer times of great joy left to be had
She’d give anything to be carefree once again
Thank God she has the summertime memories of her past to hold on to
For she knows it is these summertime memories that
may be part of the source of strength
she needs to make it through life from now on

I Wish I Could’ve Loved You

Dear Ex lover who shall remain nameless
Not because I'm ashamed of who you were but
I can admit the truth to myself now
The truth is oh sweet memory of my past
I'm ashamed of how I treated you
someone that loved me more then I deserved
You gave me your heart my dear
asking nothing but love in return
How could I have been so blind?
I wish I could've loved you
the way you loved me

I tried sweetheart I really did
You and I were young and well
I didn't even know what love was at the time
Yet no matter what I tried I couldn't make
my heart feel something it didn't
The love I once felt and still feel for you is like
the love between best friends
A love without end

I know this poem comes years too late and
the dreams you had of us lay broken at my feet
For all those broken dreams and
your broken heart I'm so sorry
I wish I could've loved you
the way you loved me
If you ever read this
I hope you find a girl who
can love you more than I could, and or did
Love, the girl who thinks of you
more often than you know

Wishful Thinking

The darkness of night is fading
from a cool yet bright multicolored sky
Her nightmares of fear which
sometimes lead to tears are replaced
on this morning with sweet daydreams of him

The sweet daydreams of the man she loves
How does he do that?
How does he make her want to jump through the phone
giving him the “what for” one minute and
making her lose herself in these
sweet daydreams the next?

It's a little after eight now
She hears a key in her door and
still lost in her romantic daydream of him asks silently
Could it be my love?
When it isn't she thinks
damm it's only my wishful thinking!

Emotions On Fire

She smiles despite feeling like
she might explode into countless Pieces
Burning through a dark night that may never end
The screams in her head full of raw emotions fighting to be heard
Her emotions on fire at this very moment
can't seem to find her voice which would grant
them some much needed release

Why can't her loved ones take a little time out of
their so called busy lives to see where she's coming from?
She has taken time to listen to their tears fall, but
all they want is to hide from her
Ok that's fine they can hide
There's only one more thing they should know
Hiding causes emotions on fire instead,
this is a time she and her family need to
pill together as one

She hopes she'll be able to quiet
the screams in her head
Cooling the fire of her raw emotions
Then as she always does she'll pray
putting her emotions on fire in His hands

Well, It Could Be Worse

Her mom could've had no warning
that the lord may call her soon
leaving her family to ask
Why didn't we say this?
Why didn't we do that?

Now she has a chance to say the things she
wants her mom to know and ask
the questions she always wanted to
You best believe as soon as she and her mom
find the time she will pepper her with the questions
only a mom can answer
Well, it could be worse

Her mom might not have had the chance to
make memories that she and her loved ones
will hold close to their hearts for the rest of their lives
Memories she'll wrap herself in like a blanket
on a cold dark and lonely night
if God must call for her

Even though she admits she's asked
God more than once
Why my mom, why now
doesn't she deserve to have
many more years of happiness ?
Well, it could be worse

She could turn her back on her faith and
the lord she grew to love
Falling into a darkness she sank into before
The truth is He was there when she needed Him and
He brought her into the light
She knows He'll be there when she needs Him again

She hopes this poem will show all its readers
no matter what you're going through
There's always someone who isn't as
fortunate as you
So, before your spirit falls to low
just say well, it could be worse

Beautiful Man

You are a beautiful man without a doubt
The kind of man yes even with flaws
who she'd still like to believe is her perfect complement
She even finds herself believing you
hung the moon just for her
in her late night better than ice cream kind of dreams
Your smile makes her heart leap out of her chest
Baby you had her heart from the first time she saw you
in the wake of your seven year absence

The only thing she wonders is where has your sense of romance gone?
She writes of a love that you say still burns red hot, but
you haven't done anything to prove it
Now when she talks of you sadness pulls at her heartstrings
All she's ever asked you is to be there
Well' where are you?
Her life isn't easy and no one ever said it would be
She wishes as you say everything will be okay
This isn't high school hun
where the worst thing was a bad grade
they call it real life

She will love you and be there like
she promised she would be
If you want more you must give more
That beautiful man is
the way it has to be

Wondering

She got news no daughter wants to hear
her mom is ill with cancer and now she prays every day that
God will intervene making it go away
A cancer that let's be honest could
leave she and her loved ones without their rock
A thought she can't help, but
think about alone in her room at night
While she tries not to cry aloud
Yet her mom's illness and the outcome of it
aren't the only matters causing her heart pain
in this very moment

The man who loves her with all his heart
The one who said he'd be there for her
through thick and thin
after she shared the news
The one whose hands she put her heart in
from seventeen until forever came
hasn't been there in the ways she needs him to be

Where is he?
Does he even care?
Is it too much for her to ask for him to be there
Like she has for him in the not so distant past?
with an open mind and the heart she fell in love with

Now she's wondering
If she should let him go and go
back to square one to find a man that can and
wants to give her more
She has so much love to give and
feels he may not be the one anymore

Like she's told him before
There's more to love than talking about
sex twenty four seven
She knows the decision is hers and
hers alone to make
She doesn't want to leave a broken heart in her wake, but
a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do