Giving Her Heart to God

Her heart aches more than words can say in this fleeting instant
It feels as if she’s carrying a ton of weight on those shoulders of hers and
she doesn’t even have the strength to shed tears
Wishing she could float away on a soft cloud past this pain
sounds like a chance she’d take if she could
Some of the friends who said they’d be there if she ever needed them
are busy with their own lives and that’s okay

Although, she’d like to think she can get through this on her own
This time she knows it’ll take a little more so
she’s giving her heart to God
Who better to give her heart to than
the one who created it for her in the first place?
She has faith and trusts He’ll know what to do
All she can do is listen to her heart
eventually his love will heal her heartache
bringing her into the light beyond the pain

Where I Stand

Anyone who knows me will tell you
I’m a sweet person who will
trust someone unless and until
they give me a reason not to and
I’d really like to think I can trust the people who
make it a point to tell me I’m their friend
So if you know what’s good for you my friend?
Don’t give me a reason to doubt you considering
the fact I’m learning trust is a fragile quality
A quality more fragile then I once thought

Lately people I love have told me I
need to stand up for myself and
what I believe in
The way I see it I’ve come a long way but
when it comes down to this issue
I’ll always be a work in progress

If you don’t know me by now
let me tell you when I get upset I hold things in
until I can’t hold back anymore
I know it isn’t right to hate anyone but
I’ll also tell you I hate liars with a passion so
if you’re thinking of lying to me you may
as well walk out of my life for good
This is proof the truth will always set you free and
that’s where I stand

The Locket

She opens the silver heart shaped pendent to peer inside
because he’s been on her mind a lot as of late
A smiling face she’d seen for eighteen years
but has missed  dearly for almost six seemed to be calling out to her
Don’t forget I’m one heartbeat away from you at all times..”
Then as if he were standing right in front of her she softly whispered
“How could I forget you?

Suddenly the memories of all the great times they shared
found their way into her head and the tears began to flow
She remembered all the times he had her pull the lawn moor around their block
because he didn’t want to push it from house to house himself or
the times they played  for hours wishing the light of day would never fade
There are many more great memories she will forever hold dear
If she ever forgets his face all she has to do is
open the locket to see how full of life he was

Even though he’s gone to heaven he’s taught her
to never again take life for granted
And to love without holding back
The only thing she can promise him is
that she’ll try to live her life the way he’d want her to

The Little Things in Life

If anyone knows life can deal you an unexpected hand
it’s the woman putting these words to paper
She’s still learning most situations that can cause drama in one’s life
are so small they’re virtually insignificant
If you think about it twenty years from now
chances are you probably won’t even remember the problem you’re currently losing  sleep over

One day you might wake up asking yourself

Was that worry worth everything it took from me?
No matter how hard you try you can’t make others
bend to your will without the risk of pushing them away
Is that what you really want?

She knows life can bring one happiness but

along with the happiness it can also bring pain  
When the pain gets to be too much to bear
send a little prayer to heaven and
trust in Him to answer when you need Him most

In the meantime everyone only gets one shot at
this beautiful yet sometimes tragic state we call life
Live e very moment to the fullest
loving those who love and care for you with all your might
Somewhere in there remember to laugh
because It’s going to be bumpy at times
so hold on and enjoy the ride

Mistletoe Dreams

When she was young Christmas time meant
visions of sugarplum ferries  would find their way into her head  
She dreamed she was a ballerina dancing
yet seeming to float effortlessly on air
the joyous music  of this time of year filling the space around her 
Oh my, where a child’s imagination can take one
 She loved the magical wonder of the season so much
she’d wish time would freeze like the snow 
 
Now the snow is falling the fire crackling but
the man she wants to spend the rest of her life with is still missing
Instead of the sugarplum ferries of Christmases past 
she’s dreaming of finding her love under the mistletoe
As she sees his smiling face in her mind’s eye
she wonders if her mistletoe dreams will ever come true

Snow Angels

It's that time of year again

When winter has covered everything

for miles around with an endless blanket of white

and the sight of glittering lights becomes awe inspiring 

It becomes common place to hear the joyous

sounds of children singing their favorite carols

The magic of the season seems

to bring everyone back to their childhood

if only for a moment

It's that time of year when

parents have been known to brave the chill so

they can teach their children how to make snow angels

Intern allowing them to make their imprint in the snow

and hand the tradition down for generations to come

It’s Too Hard

There’s a phrase she’s heard entirely too much lately
A phrase she’s used a lot over her span on this earth
that when spoken at least in her mind conveys a sense of hopelessness  
Hopelessness that leads one on a journey down
a long dark path with no sign of light to mark its end  

 

While she will agree there are times and places
when this dark sense will grip ones heart  seeming
as if it may never let go
To those she’d like to say she’s been there
one day your pain will ease and you will
smile without knowing you’re doing so

To those who use it’s too hard as an expression to
get out of situations they don’t want to be in
She has one question
How will you ever learn the lessons you need in this life
if you never push yourself beyond your comfort zone
in turn gaining the strength you may need in time?
Pain is a great teacher at least it has been for her